There are some things about ourselves, dearest Mortals, that we all want to ignore. Some deep truths are too hideous to acknowledge, you want to bury them away as deep as they will go.

A friend of mine, let’s call her Angela (have to love those code names), recently had a chat with me about one of my ugly truths. She thinks I have way too many female friends, especially since I’m a heterosexual male, and that if I were to enter into a relationship with someone down the line it may cause issues. Naturally (and rather defensively), I brought up a few points and possible counter measures if such a situation would arise. 

But it got into my head. That tiny thought, perhaps I do surround myself with a lot of women. Are they really just friends to me? Or are they, just maybe, examples of what I would want to end up with in a relationship? 

Could I see myself romantically with any of my friends? 

The ugly answer: Yes.

Whether it would or wouldn’t work with any of them is totally a moot point, the fact that I have so many female friends where any form of romantic attachment exists is kind of staggering. How can I have a healthy relationship with one woman when I fill my life with many? 

And I have had romantic encounters with a few of these friends already, so the seed of romance is already planted there for both parties. How is this even remotely healthy for me in the grand scheme of things?

So many questions and too many ugly truths.
Angela has quite the point, I grudgingly admit. 
I have a lot of things to work out in life, and this is just another chain that needs breaking. Acknowledge your own ugly truths, dear Mortals. Free your minds. Only then will you be content with yourselves.

This is the denizen under the bridge, signing off.